So it's been nearly a year since I've posted. Mark and I had a fantastic relationship that just kinda.... fizzled. We still see each other (very infrequently) and the "I love you"s have all but ceased.
Shortly after New Year's he started to withdraw. He said that saying "I love you" frequently was redundant. And I've sort of stopped loving him. Until I see him, which is so infrequent that most of the time I just don't care about him.
Eventually I'm going to move on. I'll start seeing and sleeping with other people again. I guess the reason I haven't yet is that I'm hoping that the wonderful man I fell in love with last year will return to sweep me off my ft again. Unfortunately, I don't think he exists anymore.
I think, when you're aware that a woman doesn't respect many men other than you, you'd want to maintain that respect. Sadly, I've lost it. And I don't think he's even aware.
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